Very sorry this is happening to you. At times like this I have a two part plan: (A) I find any form of support I can use in any form I can use it, even if it's nothing more than a chat room containing like-minded people (B) I find one thing to keep me afloat, one reason, one image. Sometimes it's a song or a piece of writing. Anything that tells me this life is still worth living. Hope this finds you well.