If I told you all the details, you would hate me. Long story short, over a week ago my bf and I were having a few beers while the step kids (I call them my step kids) were playing around the house. Well before I knew it, I was blacked out. I briefly remember fighting with my bf and threatening suicide. Well I guess the attempt went through because I woke up the next day in the ER with the dr telling me I was going to psych. The whole time I was in psych, I thought i had just cut and swallowed a bunch of my meds but I had no clue the details of what happened and I didn't know that my bf was even mad at me. Well the day he picked me up from psych (5 days later), he told me he was moving out. Let me just mention that he lives in my home and his kids are here part time. Because of my BP I'm pursuing social security so we depend on his income which is very tight as it is. My car isn't even running. So here we are in the car on the way home from IP and I'm losing my mind crying. He then tells me the details of that night and says his kids are no longer allowed around me. He didn't care that is be stuck here with no income or ways to pay my bills. I would lose my house. He didn't care. I begged him to not leave. I begged like a sorry loser. He agreed to give me one month to get my anger issues under control and no drinking. How do I fix this?! What kind of relationship do we have if I can't have the kids here? I'm so embarrassed that my drinking has came to this. I've ruined everything.

I'm done drinking. It messes with my MI and it's ruined my family at home. I'm so worried he's still going to leave me. I worry sick every day.

Anyone else ever royally **** their lives up like this from drinking? Was it fixable? I guess time will tell.

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