Hi there! I agree with the other posters here that you should highly considering seeing a therapist. There is nothing wrong with you. You have just been through so much and are experiencing a lot of pain. You didn't deserve any of that. That is so horrible. You are a very strong person. Please consider seeing a therapist. I think that they may really help you, but you do need some support. It's tough going through your abuse alone, and you don't deserve that. You will be okay. -hugs with your consent-