The topic I usually have to talk about is my diagnosis, which is still a mystery, one that I hope that can resolve itself soon. He always tells me the same thing. If I told him I had a personality disorder, (which is impossible at this point) he would probably say, "Those are very valid points." I feel like I'm talking to a recording. Certain things I never share with him, for my own personal reasons I have no intention of discussing. I've never shared with him that I still consider myself a coward for not offing myself when I had the chance. And my growing concern about God and what kind of character he is. Would he intentionally make me suffer? or his really kind and loving? I don't know anymore...