You're not always wrong. You have an illness that affects your brain. I know it feel like it is but it isn't. Your wife did some pretty nasty stuff to you, and it isn't your fault. You're not going to get any better by beating yourself up over this.

It took me being scared for my and my daughter's safety to finally get out of the last abusive relationship. I'm now married to someone who cares about me and is willing to help me with my MI. So things can work out.