You definetely have a rough path to walk, Sweety, but it's NOT YOU. You ARE lovable! There's no such stamp on your forehead! *I* love you... never did see that stamp there at all!

Getting "lost" could very well be dissociation, Hon. It used to happen to me when I was going through some rough therapy. It, too, was going to my T's.

Body memories are HORRIBLE! Do you really have to go through them again in therpay? Just dealing with the facts is bad enough! Is there ANYTHING I can do to help you?

Tell "the little one" that my heart aches for her, reassure her that it's not her fault and that she, indeed, IS VERY LOVABLE!!!