My doctor tries to help me, but the "help " he can give is limited as I feel that were I to express my true feelings that I would be put under close watch; I hate meds. If it were up to me, I wouldn't take theml. Also, I wouldn't be in contact with any of my family except maybe my dad, because they all desperately want to cure me. I don't want a cure. I want my life back. And if I can't have that, I may as well off myself. Don't worry, it won't happen anytime soon. I'm under suicide watch. Trying Prozac, the drug my dad's cousin was on for 30 years. 30 years. That is such a long time, I think 30 years later I'd be dead.