I was on the phone last night with my boyfriend and we were talking about sex, ya know, what we like, what we don't like. Well, I started getting really scared that he was gonna try to rape me if we got together. I know this is all my sexual abuse crap resurfacing, but it scares the hell out of me. I'm afraid to tell him that this is happening. I don't want to scare him off or anything. I know he really likes me, but I can't keep doing this. We've been doing this for a few days, and I didn't start having this reaction until last night. I'm so afraid that I'll hurt him if I do say something. I don't want to do that.
What should I do? I'll probably talk about it in group therapy, but he's in there with me. I don't want him to feel bad.
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