Sometimes I don't feel that the days will ever get better. I am tired of not being me, I don't even know who I am anymore, I hid so much for so long, that was a lie the life I lived then, now it is out, and I still have no clue who I really am!! I yell at my kids, and I hate seeing the looks in their faces.......I hate me! I don't want to hurt them, I just want to stop feeling like my insides are being ripped apart, and there isn't a bandaid big enough to fix them!!!! Everyday is a struggle, I keep hearing that it will ease, some days it does ease up, and then days like today when it just hits, and I say I can't do this again.........