Last night I was talking with a guy I really like and he really likes me. I started thinking of everything that turns me on...then I started thinking of everthing me and my ex did to each other when we were together. I started thinking of how she brought men home to screw me...I remember it affected me so badly that I cut myself. I wanted to cut so badly last night.

When will all this stop? I want out of this cutting cycle. I know I have to stop it, but I don't have the strength I think. I know I'm the only one who has control of it, but it doesn't feel that way.