I often have memories of when I was raped. It seems every time I have any kind of sexual pleasure they come back to me. These memories often led to the desire to cut. Before I got into therapy I hurt myself everytime my husband and I got intimate. Since I have been in therapy that need has lessened. As I slowly release myself from the grasp of those memories I find the need to self injure after sex has deminished to a feeling of meloncholia. Dreams however still trigger me so badly that I usually end up slipping into that space.
Carrie