She is 20, I'm 38. She has been with this guy for 3 years. She seems happy with him. I'm not gonna judge their relationship because my judgement is obviously biased. She told me she wants to have both of us in her life. I'm not ok with being the platonic friend, the shoulder to cry on.
I get jealous when I see her posting pictures of them on social networks.
I know this is really toxic and I'm trying to put some distance, but it's really hard.
I really can't believe I'm losing my mind over a 20 year old girl.