Gah I now see that you are in Australia. I am so sorry not to have noticed this earlier.

Here is a resource in Australia, including phone numbers and chat:

https://www.lifeline.org.au/Get-Help

Do you have a cell phone? If so, maybe put a hotline number in your phone? And also know that if life is in danger you can call 000.

But maybe you already know about such numbers and sites, since you are resourceful and have already been speaking to online counselors!