I have always been at someone else's mercy because they supported me. I worked full time and didn't make enough money for rent, plus was bullied into staying dependent on my mother. Then I married and got pregnant, being supported by h, but loving being able to stay home and raise kids. Over time, I have become so ill due to the conflict and stress, now I really don't think I'm capable of working more than part time.

I know what you mean about sucking up by doing things for them. I did so much just to be loving and nice, but then I got so little back. It became resentment and feeling so trapped.

I was raised that you always have to answer to somebody. It's a bad feeling to not be able to just feel safe and secure in a healthy place. I understand.