Hope you are doing better.... If you don't mind suggestion, think it might be good course of action to get another, professional opinion about your diagnoses. I believe I can understand the need to have something confirmed, to have a name for what I am going through. For me, an official diagnoses took some of the anxiety away - if there wa a word for it, then there was information on it, possible help. I wish the same for you.

mania can be addicting, even the psychosis can be - there is a raw power that descends with the mania, and hearing god like voices can be intoxicating for me.... but the downside is it quickly morphs into something unhealthy and dangerous (for me). I find it best tempered with medications, therapy, and some kind of game plan so I keep my life on track, retain relationships and some of my sanity.

Take care of yourself.