Tuesday I called my brother, but he didn't answer, so I left a message, just saying, "call me when you get a chance." He didn't call back, so two days later, on Thursday I called again and left another message saying the same thing. I shouldn't have been pushy about the second call, but just wanted to talk to someone.

Anyway, he never called back and I still wanted to talk to people so Saturday I went to a writers group meeting. It's not my usual meeting, but one person from my Tuesday group also goes to the Saturday group. Sometimes he txts me, but not often. I got the feeling he didn't want to talk to me, so I didn't say anything & just sat quietly. When I was getting ready to leave he asked if I got the stuff he mailed. I said no, but the mail hadn't come before I left my house. When I got home I felt kind of lonley and wanted attention. The mail had came and his stuff was there, so I used that as an excuse to txt him even though I know a woman should never initiate a conversation. I texted "just picked up the mail & your stuff is here." He txted back "good" and thats where it ended.

On FB I posted some pictures I took while hiking by myself last weekend and said it was a pretty hike, but pretty difficult. I didn't get any likes & only 1 comment. my cousian said I should stop trying to get everyone's attention & delete my FB account 'cus no one likes me. her comment got 7 likes.

I know no one likes me, but still sometimes I want attention. I want to know how to stop that feeling so I don't bother people anymore.