My first thought was I'd be dead. Most of my life I was an addict. BUT having said that, it was me that decided that the drinking had to stop. So I'm thinking somehow I'd have found a way to move forward and change because of emotional pain..somewhere inside of me is the "want" to change, I think if we've got that then change will happen with or without therapy, but therapy makes it easier, cleaner and sweeter than going it alone. One must want to be a butterfly.