hello vanishingacts. You've already gotten some excellent suggestions here but the most important thing is that you are seeking help and advocating for your own health. Keep it up. Like others have said, find someone you feel comfortable talking to who can help you talk to your dad about this and get the help you need. If the school counselor is out (and I agree, go with your instincts) maybe a teacher you can talk to? If your ex's mom is someone you can talk to then that is a good choice! Fight the nervousness, you are entitled to get some help with this from whoever you trust. I feel you are already on your way for understanding this and asking for help here. Good luck and keep fighting for it, help is out there.