Ain't gonna try to tell you what to do. You may not be anything like me. There's a difference between someone with a substance abuse problem and an addict. The former develops a dependence on drugs/alcohol. They go, they get clean, then they move on with their life. They're the kind of person whose using got in the way of their work or family. An addict is the kind of person whose work/family/etc gets in the way of their using.

In addiction, I destroyed everything that got in the way of booze and dope. And no matter how much it killed me inside or how much I loved those around me, none of it mattered. It defined my life and, as a result, I ****ed up every relationship and everything around me. I'd smash my head till I bled, screaming and wanting so badly to be able to stop. Always went back.

I'm legitimately certain that if I hadn't found my way into the program of recovery, I'd be one of two places right now. Prison or dead. But maybe you're not like me or similar others and, quite frankly, I'd be beyond happy if that's the case. I certainly can't make that determination. But looking at and finding where you really stand in that scheme is of the utmost importance. Because it defines our course of action. The last time I got it in my head that I could go it all alone, the results weren't good.

No matter what, I pray the absolute best for you.