It depends on how I approached it. If I were calm and rational, I'd get nervous laughter, denials, and an apology. They'd probably tell me they meant me instead of one of my sisters in one of their comments. If I were to be emotional, my mom would burst into tears and carry on until I ended up consoling her. Then the whole thing would be forgotten.
I don't remember ever feeling overlooked in childhood, though I always knew my parents had their favorites and I wasn't one of them. But now, more often than not, I'm the one who gets skipped. Like I said, I'm not upset about the sketches, per se, but I wonder if it's a symptom of bigger problems. I have a very hard time feeling anything. Everyone talks about how their children are their biggest joy and I just don't feel that way. I don't feel like I am capable of deep, lasting love. Could these two things be related or am I letting myself get in a tangle over nothing?
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