So, as you some of you may know, I recently had a severe episode that ended with me OD'ing and my husband wanting a separation.

I've been living with my parents because I didn't have anywhere else to go, and my husband moved up by his parents.

My parents like to drink, which is really triggering for me.

After some rude text messages that my mother sent my husband while drunk, my husband finally decided that this isn't the best place for me to be.

And I've been stable for three months now (with exceptions of being sad obviously because I'm not with my family).

So in a month I'm moving back in with my husband and daughter.

Which is wonderful obviously. I miss them. They miss me. Since I've been stable my husband trusts me caring for our daughter again (she's four).

I'm terrified I'm going to have another episode! I'm really scared about this! It makes me sick I'm so scared.

I know that as long as I keep on taking my meds and getting my shot, etc., this may not happen for awhile.

Is anyone else scared of having an episode?

I don't want to lose my family again!