i am a 26 year old female.it all started when i was just 15.i was diagnosed with clinical depression and anxiety.there were issues i was never able to overcome.i was suicidal.life has been horrible since then.no meds,doctors,therapies could help me.my parents and i are tired of my illness.i even developed social anxiety.i have attempted suicide 4 times...but was saved every time.i have stopped taking medicines...even my doctors were hopeless.!
sometimes i am just moderately depressed but never free from it...negative thoughts constantly hit my mind..i had to drop out of college due to this illness.i completed studies via correspondence.
i do nothing all day...i feel just tired and bored..i have decided not to get married.i don't do a job because of social anxiety.everything is so dark...i used to be a straight a student...my grades dropped slowly and slowly.depression took everything from me...my faith,my confidence,happiness,my dreams,hopes everything.
i dont know how to say how i feel....when i was not meant for this world,why was i sent here......oh God.....!!!