I saw the psychologist at the bipolar clinic today. This was the last step in getting my diagnosis on my records and they diagnosed me Bipolar I, ADHD and Borderline Personality. I'm quite shocked at the last one. They said my paranoia and outbursts of anger and mood swings are what led them to the borderline diagnosis. To be honest I was more concerned they'd diagnose me with schizoaffective. I'm on Zyprexa currently and it's working well for the paranoia and anxiety. I go back in a couple of weeks to discuss further medication. I don't know how I feel about all this. I've cried a lot since I left. I feel really really s****y right now.