Thank you all. Can ya tell my T appointment is approaching and I am panic mode? For some reason therapy the last few sessions has been a double edges sword. I want to go, but I don’t want to go. I’m afraid to go, but afraid not to go. It is an internal battle between logic and emotion. The logical me is saying, “Stop being a baby, go get your problems taken care of and be done with it, you will be a lot happier in the long run. While the emotional me is saying “No, it’s too hard, you really don’t want to know what’s under the surface, you’re going to create more problems than you had initially, your only making yourself more miserable focusing on things.” Unfortunately, the emotional me is really throwing up some hard to navigate road blocks in my healing process and although they have no real basis they still really rattle me. Thanks for supporting me, I think I would have stopped going to therapy a while ago without you all on PC.