I've been stable and in recovery from alcohol and drugs for nine months. I boxed up my disabled sister's condo two weeks ago. The cleaning, organizing and packing took a week. It was a monumental task because it was filthy and she never threw anything away. She was also sick so I had to take care of her. I moved her into my Mom's house near my apartment. Then my Mom got sick with a heart condition. I have now been taking care of my Mom and my sister and staying over there all week. They are driving me crazy. My sister is extremely self-centered and has temper tantrums. She is incontinent and has had diarreah for a month and does not clean up after herself when she can. My Mother is a controlling, anxious person who is becoming like a child. I mean there is so much going on I can't even begin to describe it. I'm just gritting my teeth trying to deal with all the problems and stay sane and sober. I'm finding myself with a short fuse. I'm highly irritable but stuffing it. I'm cussing again. I'm losing my connection to God. My smoking has increased. I'm super angry. My Mother refuses to talk to my Dad on the phone about my sister and my sister is afraid to call him so I have to. My parents have been divorced for thirty years. Get the f^%$ over it Mom, this is your child. I'm so sick of this. I'm trying to help but I'm frustrated. Why can't I just be a nice caregiver damnit.