Brentus the fact that you felt like this for SO many years and still continue to handle your responsibilities deserve much appreciation😙.
Your WAY more stronger than you give yourself credit for.

No for me the thing I hate about my clinical depression is actually the days when I have some relief and clarity. My good days are scary because then I can see how much my illness wrecked my life. How far behind I am and where I thought I would be at this time in my life. 😧