I once need you all to understand the hurt itself once those walls start to tumble is unimaginable words can't often tell the story of how bad it is....It was for this system.....I/we felt the need to understand everything, I think I credit SSDI decision very quickly with this....Too much in, out of curiosity, some of it compartmentalized it was too soon now its like I'm cleaning up a bunch and now learning it with their help. I tend to think its most people fantasy on here to be 100% better when this isn't all the answer on here because the experience is subjective. Really if you not really a lot better it might not be best to be on here unless a few things are true. I know at most the body does it things best and you be surprise of the consciousness you already have it doesn't have to answer you it has its own fight the way it will get it better and adjust it makes sense it has been this way our whole life...It does need that much training... Just like a healing of a medical problems dissected it can be repaired in some way so that cohesive is achieved....