I hate my life.

I feel anhedonic as hell and getting paranoid.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I can't stop eating.

I quit weed because it makes my mom upset that she has to work all the time and then when she gets home, she can't send emails on her ****** computer. I'm buying her a new one but I have no god damn money.

I won't take anything.

I don't want to take my meds either.

I can just deal with it.

I'm going to go for a run and I'm gonna do that every day.

I don't care if I get a heart attack I'm going to keep running until I collapse.