I agree with the above comment. One of the hardest jobs is faking happiness for the sake of others. It is crucial that you continue therapy and med. Take it from Mr, I worked with children in a mental hospital and gave group therapy, positive feedback and care. The kids were there for trying/threatening suicide or need meds reevaluated. When I did this, I was totally depressed,had a emotionally abusive boyfriend while attending college and volunteeringredients at the YWCA. I eventually had to quite for my own sanity and felt like I was lying to the kids (pretending life is good). It's a hard mask to keep on.