The total unpredictability is the worst for me.

I cycle really quickly, which means that I never know how I'm going to wake up and if I'll be able to leave the house that day. I can't make solid commitments. My responsibilities at church are all able to be done via text and happen only a couple times a month because that's all I can commit to.

I HATE that due to the unpredictability my life is not my own. I feel so powerless because I AM powerless over the cycling, over the constantly shifting abilities and moods.