sorry man..
i know i will try to make a stumble forward 1 step and fall back rolling down hill 100 or so, its always a sucky reality

guess im just too stubborn and blind to realize its futile -.-
or i have chains hooked to me and something ahead trying to drag me forwards, who knows why is like this..

im curious though so i keep trying, would be interesting to see how a stable happy lifes like