I am feeling guilty about trying to make one of my parts stay out at session. We have rules and one of the rules is that we don't make anyone do things they don't want to do. I was trying to let my t know that I don't hear voices in my head. I hear thoughts and a particular thought belongs to a specific part. If I don't know the gender they will tell me. But at this point I know most. My t had a difficult understanding that how do I know if my part is a male or female if I can't hear their voice. I asked one of my parts to come out into session. It's a quite change that becomes apparent when my demeanor changes. This is how the exchange happens in my head. Parts think out loud, (no voice) and communicate with each other in that way. It's like telepathically but with in my brain. So the part that came out to help with my explanation wanted to go but I tried to hold them out. Totally against the rules. I apologized to everyone for that but I still feel guilty and a little sick for trying. It's not my job to tell anyone what to do. I hope the others will forgive me on this. Ill never do it again.