The depression phase set in. I am going to try what I always try - continue with routine, and not try to believe any reason my brain thinks up for being sad. I believe my sadness is just a low chemical in my brain that lacks the fight survival instinct, and my attaching reasons for being sad is just a human brain response to try and figure out why I lack the will to live.

Sigh. So anyway, I am thankful that heart beats and breathing come naturally - if they didn't I couldn't do it on my own.