I'm so glad you stuck around. I can relate so well to your posts.

The memory problems are from the disassociation. I have that problems too. That's what my Pdoc told me. It can get real frustrating. I have trouble finding my car in parking lots, I don't know where I'm going when I'm driving, I get up for something and have no idea what I'm getting up for, etc.

God did not put an unlovable stamp on your forehead. God is love. He loves you no matter what. Bad things happen because he lets us make our own choices. Other people made bad choices, NOT YOU. Your making good choices by trying to heal.

You are loved!