You can do it. But if you feel like you can't right now while you are trying to get help for your BP and BPD you can always try to get on ssdi. I'm trying that myself. Ssdi doesn't have to be a permanent thing. If you can make the case that you can't return to the work you used to do and that you can't work other full time work until you get you mental illnesses managed well you, at least I think, are entitled to the benefits - at least until you are stable and healthy enough to start work again. You also get the freedom to work at least part time in a low stress job for a little extra if your ssdi payments are too low. They have a great program to get you back to work and out of ssdi, too, once you're healthy enough. Unfortunately the process could take a bit of time if you have to get a hearing with a judge. Just my 2 cents!