Hi Siren depression really does a number on our perceptions. I've found that even though I know that, it doesn't stop the painful emotions.

Can you reach out and request friends with one or more of them on Facebook? Maybe some of them are waiting for you out of respect for you.

For me, I would be resentful of having to go first but I know that would be my depression talking and if I could push through it I would be happy that I did.

Good luck.