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Originally Posted by Wild Coyote
I hope you feel you can share openly with your therapist/pdoc.
Often, events need to be viewed in context to understand exactly what's happening.
This might be an aspect of your bipolar condition and/or an aspect of your personality traits, etc.
It sounds like this is in reaction to conflict with your wife, which isn't necessarily a trait of bipolar. My friend with BPD describes very similar reactions to interpersonal conflicts -- rage, intense shutdowns, euphoria, etc.
It takes close and prolonged observation, putting events into proper context to tell the difference, to be most accurate about what's going on with you.
I hope you can work closely with a sound therapist/pdoc and can sort out any questions. moving forward on your path to healing.
WC |
Thank you Wild Coyote. This has all happened in such a short term I haven't had very many discussions with my new team due to travel demands following my hospital release a few weeks ago (or whenever.. I have no concept of time anymore).
Ughh... this 'personality traits' versus a potential mental disorder is very stressful to me. When does a personality trait that causes multiple (and now severe in regards to my recent overdose) become a disorder???
As to my reaction to my wife.. well.. to me it only happens if I'm already in some kind of state of mind. When I feel 'normal' I don't respond to petty arguments in this manner.
I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now and I want to know what is wrong with me.. and I'm absolutely consumed with research into bipolar disorder right now.. or whatever similar or co-morbid issues associated with it. Do people become manic learning about their mania???!!!!
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