Today, for the first time in a week since my nightly panic started, I feel like a human. I took Ativan last night to force sleep after a very tough day yesterday. I got 7 hours of sleep, and even felt like having coffee in the morning (I haven't been drinking it because of my acid reflux). I got the coffee from a local donut shop that is around the corner from me, and I even put sugar in it which I haven't been doing. The combination of being chilled out by real sleep and caffeine made me wide eyed and energetic at work, I felt like myself.. I was enthusiastic, funny, sharp. Now that afternoon has dragged on I am starting to feel tired again, the multiple days of not enough sleep will catch up to me. I teach a late class tonight, but I hope the energy exertion of that will help me sleep again tonight. trying to stick to my rule of only taking Ativan in absolute emergencies. I also got to talk to my best friend on the phone who is a huge support to me, and got a random email about a job opportunity that made me excited. Trying to stay on the upswing. Day 5 of re-starting sertraline, let's hope it kicks in sooner rather than later and I can get re-balanced.