So, as a lot of you know, right now my husband and I are separated after my recent episode. He and my daughter live five hours away with his parents. Right now I live with my parents.

Because my parents can be triggering with their drinking, etc., my husband relented and said I could join them next month, instead of the five months he originally wanted our separation to be.

This is the problem:

If I moved in with them I'd have no privacy. Seriously. Right now my husband's room is his mother's work area. And his parents have fifteen dogs, as well as running a kennel, so there would be barking dogs at five in the morning, and a sick dog coming into my husband's "room"/his mother's work area every morning, around five. Our daughter has her own room, thankfully. They have a very small house. Only place that is quiet and where you can be alone for maybe an hour is their living room around nine at night.

It just sounds like seriously miserable living conditions.

And there really wouldn't be anywhere to set up my computer permanently. So it would taking it out when I needed it and then putting it back away. How would I fb video chat with people? lol

Right now I have my own cozy room and privacy and my writing stuff sprawled out everywhere and my coloring books and pencils and Glaze and my magic eight ball. And my positive affirmations taped around and my lamp.

I'm in a healing stage after my recent episode, which was traumatizing for me, as well as my family.

So I'm really not sure what I should do here.

I'm still in a healing process, and I'm not sure if moving into conditions like that would put a halt to it.

I know this really should be simple. I want to be with my family. Move up there with his parents.

But I just worry such miserable living conditions will trigger a depressive episode.

I need my space. I'm happy with just a little corner to myself. There are no little corners I could have to myself.

I know this should be such an easy decision!

What would you guys do?