*trigger warning: mention weight in numbers*

Some slight background: I've been struggling with anorexia since I was around 9 (a decade ago). It's been very up and down since then. Relevant diagnosed problems I have are BDD, OCD, and specific food related phobias.

I actually have been doing really well gaining weight as I am severely underweight, did gain a little weight, but still need to gain more. The problem now is that I have a stomach bug that is causing me to slip further into my habits and pushed my weight down again.

It's taken so long to even get to this point and I don't want to lose it all and start from scratch again. Even worse than that, I don't want to get sent away to IP again because I find that entire experience far more triggering than helpful.

I don't know what to do. Thank you for reading.