TRIGGER - graphic suicide talk



















Hugs to you. You're going through so much.


I have a short story and advice to give. It's not meant to frighten you or stress you out. I remember being your daughter's age. Well, I was 14. I made a VERY serious attempt to commit suicide. I OD'd on 30 Extra Strength Tylenol, an entire bottle of prescription sleeping pills and as much alcohol as I could swallow. I went upstairs and prayed for death. It was a school night.


It was not a cry for help. I was very troubled due to family stuff and I wanted to end the pain. I apparently vomited in the middle of the night which probably saved me. My mom found the vomit and the note. I was so sad I didn't die and could not grab the suicide goodbye note before my mom ("I love you. This isn't your fault."). I was abusing substances, too. I needed the escape.


I needed an individual therapist. Someone who I could trust. Someone I could confidentially talk to. (Instead, my mom shuffled me off to school that day and never got me help. I should have been getting my stomach pumped. I should have been getting help. Things got worse before they got better, but here I am. I never received help until I sought it on my own, as an adult. Getting help then may have done a lot of good things for me.)


You're a good mom! Love and support is needed. I think your girl needs support and help to cope with life. You getting her that help is an act of love.


If I'd been in therapy, I'd have been fine with a psych eval. I needed professional mental health care. I recommend a therapist just for her. Family therapy sounds good. But she needs her own therapist and go from there. I just needed something. Someone. Your girl may be trying to "escape" by using. That is what I did.


I didn't have time to read the replies...my apologies if this is duplicate advice.


Let her know she is loved by you. Take care.