I can certainly understand why you feel so nervous. I mean, I don't want to make you feel worse, but I too would worry if someone I cared would behave differently around me if they knew. It's a lot for both of you to deal with.

Why don't you drink some soothing and calming tea, Hitch. Even though I don't particularly like tea myself, the idea of sipping on a cup of chamomile tea just sounds so relaxing. If you can't shake the anxiety, maybe having another talk with the BF and tell him how you feel. I know it isn't easy, but maybe it'll help to ease some of the nervousness you feel over him knowing now.