I had first semester off due to a lengthy mixed state. The last few years I have had to keep dropping my workload due to BP and PTSD. It took me three years to finish my first year at uni. This is an ongoing problem. I used to be really same and creative but these illnesses have crushed me. Now I'm dropping out of this semester it makes this year a waste.

Yes, I need to focus on healing, rest and try and find stability. It breaks my heart that this is my life. I feel so alone outside you guys and a few family members. My life is empty, pointless. I have lost so much. I grieve deeply. However I will keep fighting.