Thank you for your insight, I'm trying to start being less hard on myself about not being able to provide help that he is willing to take. To be honest, it is very hard for me to get away from them. I work a 9+ hour a day job with my dad training me and my mom as a secretary. It's just us 3 in a small company as sales reps. I also live with them so other than trying to get out of the house as much as possible, I still come home to my parents. I've started saving a small amount of cash from the very little I do make at the moment and am working towards getting a place with my girlfriend. Other than her, I honestly do not have anyone else to talk to about my situation, or to hang out with. I spend all my time with her and she is the only escape I really have from the constant worrying. I get concerned with the fact that I would be leaving this whole burden on my mom if I wasn't here to help every day as well..

Todays a big day because he has had some tests done yesterday and results come back today. Hes been feeling terrible and a few days ago had a very strange hive like rash all over his body. I'm doing everything I can to pass time here at work but I just keep coming back to the same thoughts. It has all been a very surreal experience