Hello! So I was just diagnosed yesterday with post partum OCD. I have horrible intrusive thoughts of suicide after reading an article about a woman with PPD who committed suicide. I am happy with my life and the thoughts give me anxiety and I feel like they are tricking me into thinking now I'm suicidal though it goes against everything I believe in and gives me anxiety when I think of doing that and leaving my daughter.

While I was pregnant I was obsessed with thinking I was going to die from an amniotic fluid embolism because of an article I read. And then about a week after having her I was scared of WW3/nuclear war. I am so scared of my current theme (suicide) and am even questioning if I really have OCD. Or am I psychotic/schizo.

I am starting CBT today and she told me yesterday to say (this is just the OCD talking) every time I had the thought even if it's a million times a day. And they seemed to help a little. And being around people helps some too to keep the thoughts to a minimum. The therapist wanted me to contact my OB for an AD medication. She called in Wellbutrin which I have read is one of the least effective for anxiety/OCD. I am thinking of asking for anafranil. Or maybe Luvox. Has anyone experienced this? Does it sound like OCD and what medications helped you. I just feel like I'm going crazy and really don't want to give into these thoughts. Then I will have a good moment if I think of it and think "no I would never do that" without the sinking of my heart feeling. so then it makes me question if it's really OCD. Ugh