I have OCD plus things common with the condition.

I always get impulses. They are there basically all the time. The more I don't need them the more they are there. Like if I am sitting on the passenger seat in my friend's car and holding my own phone I don't get so many impulses but if she handles me hers, which is not mine and also expensive, then I get more impulses. Basically I want to just throw it out the window. I can sort of see myself doing it time after time. We're going full speed down the highway with the windows down.

This is just my brain messing with me. I actually totally refuse to take moral responsibility for these impulses. I already had psychodynamic therapy telling me "I" am lying to myself and the impulses is the REAL me and all the horrible things I have impulses to do, that is my real wants.... Yea well, dear therapy, that is simply incorrect! That is just a way of trying to break my spirits.

I can tell my true morals the way my impulses are, the worse an impulse is, the more my morals say the opposite is right. It is like my brain tries to tease me to best it can.