While I have a host of other issues: Bipolar I, recovering heroin/crack addict, and PTSD from various traumas this is what is troubling me the most as of late.

I moved in with my Uncle in march 2013, he was like a father and older brother at the same time. During the first week of April that year, I came home and found that he had shot himself. I know I was in the room and could see the entire seen, but the only thing I can remember is seeing the top of his head, then 15 minuets later telling my brother not to come in and calling the police.

This has really been troubling me lately since the dreams I have are focusing more and more on that scene, but i never get past the door, just like my memory, although I know that I entered the room.

I have a psychiatrist who has me on medication the has really helped, but he is at a clinic and I only see him every 8-10 weeks unless i need an emergency session. I dont think this qualifies, but this memory has been haunting me a lot and I want to know if anyone has dealt with this, and if Im going to all of a sudden remember everything and go through the pain all over again.