Hi everyone.

So after reading Pete Walker's book " Complex PTSD: from surviving to thriving", it gave me a new insights and perspective of understanding and dealing with my long term emotional abuse from my parents.

Still, the low self esteem, shaky confidence, and inability to form a balanced right brain/ left brain interactions leaves me sometimes stranded in the abandonment melange. I guess I'm making a very slow progress.

I don't know about you, but my most persistent problem, is forming a genuine bond and intimacy with the significant other. It seems to me very difficult to truly love someone and elicit the necessary emotions to maintain a healthy relationship. Sometimes I vacillate between true emotional neediness from the opposite sex, and others I find myself unable to sustain this emotional bond that I rationalize a lot about why I want to be with this person or that.

I guess its difficult for me to love another person, but I really wish I will be successful someday in being genuinely in love with someone.

I don't know if you have such problem, and what did you do to overcome it.

Thanks a lot.