The last few weeks have been awful for me. I was sick and that caused me to miss some school and I started to become super stressed out financial and academically.

When I was sick I mixed some meds with some sleeping meds that I don't take because they cause me to sleep eat and I slept walked and woke up on a bench at a Walgreens only to see a couple of cops asking me to come stay the night at the station. Thankfully I explained that I was bipolar and I was able to talk them out of the hospital seeing as how I can't afford that kind of bill and I could miss school and work.

Being stressed from my life turning into a mess, I began once again missing the mania and the bliss that I remember it had brought me. I decided to once again give into my manic addiction and I have decided to not take my medication after a month of really good mental well being.

After a few days the meds were all out of my system and my mind went crazy but not in the good way. This time I have become over filled with anxiety and I am not used to the stomach and nausea problem of fear and worry.

My life is in shambles and it has gotten out of hand.mi am thousands of dollars in debt and I will not be able to register for the next semester of school since I got screwed over by financial aide. I don't know what I will do until January. I feel like adding on work will cause to much stress and though I joke about this time off as a "mental health" vacation I will find my self bored and depressed like the last time I wasn't in school. I feel like I have no purpose and that I should just die for a couple months. The holidays are going to really be tuff this year.

This mania is not the fun one I wanted and I feel like I have just become manically depressed.

Have you guys ever felt this way or hit a roadblock in life where you had no idea what was going to happen next?

I'm so confused, lost, and scared.