I am very worried that I am never going to get any better. That i am going to wither away. Its like I have no faith in myself that things will get better. I'm just very isolated today. I have no IRL friends. And this is hard. I want to volunteer. But don't know where or what to do.

I spoke with someone today about getting services. And he seemed really impressed that I have BA degree in psychology. For some reason looking back on it, I feel sad about that, like, I really AM wasting my life. I do nothing all day. Day in and day out. Though people have said I have a lot of promise, nothing really ever seems to come of it.

I am in therapy. And glad I'm going tomorrow.